im · losing · my · edge.

I am beyond excited about moving, and i think i am going to start writing in this again, I like to write my thoughts.
Toronto really brings me down, i never ever want to live here again, I could potenitally work here but I would commute as much as it would suck I cant do this ever EVER again.
we are going to halifax for the summer, til sept 1st, then we may bike around the east coast for a month or two and come back here and go to holly's wedding and then ship off again. We are thinking vacay in Thailand for a month or two and then teach english in china, korea, tawiian or soemthing, OR go to australia and work in the photo industry or whatever jobs, but apparently its really expensive and i am sick of paying alot of money for everything, i want to live somewhere cheap and beautiful. OR work on a cruise ship. we will see where life takes us. I think we are going to be travelling and gone for at least 2 years, hopefully more. Who knows. I am really excited to not have a plan. to go with the flow. I am such a plan person and its good to break the norm.
on another note, j-q and i are getting friendship tats and i am SO excited. I am so jam packed until i leave, seriously have like 4 days open for hang outs with people. I want to see so many people but dont really have the time. I hope i see everyone that means something to me before I leave.

So.
i havent wrote in this in forever. but my life is changing so i thought i should write about it.
I am going on my first plane ride tomorrow. I am pretty stoked, but a little scared only a little though. I just really dont know what to expect. and i am going by myself. I am really really excited to see Robyn, I cant believe its only been two months since she left and I miss her so hard already.

Adam and I are seriously considering moving to Halifax May 1st. IF so I will be having a going away party on April 26th. I hope to see everyone I havent seen in a while and everyone that i love and cherish. I really dont want to start my career right now and this is the main reason for leaving. I do not like the photography industry and just want to get out basically. Who knows what I will do with my life, all i know is i am not happy with my job and some of the people here so i am heading out. some of you will visit and i will probably never see some of you again. I wish you all luck and hope i will see you before I leave.

I AM SO EXCITED for something new.

i want to see everyone at amandas house.
joey. nick. that means you.

my cousins aunt died on thursday. she was 55 and died in her sleep from the flu. this is so fucked up.

yep.
you should go to phils tonight.

oh yeah.
im goign to phils saturday with joey and nick.
so you should come.

adam eats meat.
i have finished my christmas shopping.
i am coming home thursday until monday.
i am alone in my house until tomorrow night.
the god damn semester is finally over and i have three weeks off.

apparently my work is too right.

my bestafar died 12 years ago today.
Time fucking flies.

i wish i was older.